In the past few months, a peculiar and persistent thought had begun to intrude upon my work: “Why am I doing what I’m doing? What is the point of it?” This question disrupted my focus, demanding an answer. This was unprecedented for me, as I had never previously questioned my actions in this manner. Typically, if I felt like doing something, I would simply proceed without much introspection.
This was different from the usual question that many ponder, which is about whether I enjoy what I am doing or if it brings me satisfaction. I knew that I loved what I did, and it gave me a lot of satisfaction. But I found myself seeking an answer beyond the immediate gratification my work provided. I wanted to understand the actual significance of my endeavors, their point or purpose in a broader, perhaps even spiritual, context.
I began to wonder how, with so many of us existing, everyone has different desires and talents and how this creates a perfect balance in the universe, with a place and need for all these diverse roles. How is it that someone wants to be a doctor, another aspires to be a musician, while someone else might be perfectly content performing routine jobs, seeking peace and security rather than innovation and creativity? How do these varied inclinations come together to make the world function and operate so effortlessly?
During my 10-day Vipassana course, part of the answer revealed itself. It seemed there was a grander scheme at play, where our inner desires align with our external circumstances and talents because certain things in the world are meant to manifest through us. Something unique is meant to be created in the world only by us, and only we can bring about that particular contribution. And our individual contributions come together to ensure the world operates harmoniously with each of us playing a crucial role in the intricate web of existence.
This realization was further affirmed by the teachings of the Bhagavad Gita. The Gita discusses the concept of varna and the cosmic plan, where each individual has a specific role or duty (dharma) that aligns with their inherent nature and abilities. The Gita teaches that fulfilling one’s dharma aligns one with the cosmic order and contributes to the greater plan of the universe.
Our talents and desires are not random; they are integral to this cosmic plan. By following our true calling and utilizing our unique abilities, we fulfill our role in the grand scheme of things. This perspective helped me realize that my work holds significance beyond personal enjoyment and material success. It is about contributing to something greater, playing my part in the universal symphony, and manifesting what is meant to come into the world through me.
Understanding this gave me a renewed sense of purpose. Recognizing that my work is part of a larger plan and carries a deeper significance has transformed the question “Why am I doing what I’m doing?” into a profoundly meaningful inquiry rather than a disruptive one. It has provided me with a more sophisticated and satisfying answer, rooted in the understanding that my actions are a vital part of the intricate tapestry of life.
